Lies of the Enemy.
I have a confession to make…
Sometimes I feel like I’m not enough. Sometimes I compare myself to others and convince myself that my voice isn’t valued. Sometimes I struggle with feeling like I truly fit in.
I know that might sound crazy to some people. From the outside, you might look at me and think I have all the confidence in the world. But the truth is, every so often, the enemy sneaks lies into my mind—and for a brief moment, I believe them.
Right now, I’m working closely with friends of mine who are 100% Type A, while I am 100% Type C (and proud, lol). They are incredibly organized, highly planned, and meticulous. If something is happening, they’ve mapped it out, thought it through, and prepared for every detail. I genuinely admire and appreciate their organizational skills.
Me? I’m organized—but differently. I don’t always have everything planned out to the smallest detail. I’m more of a “go with the flow” kind of person. I can fly by the seat of my pants without spiraling into panic—and honestly, that’s just how God wired me.
But in some of the things we do together, the enemy has tried to plant a lie in my mind: Your voice doesn’t matter. Your opinion doesn’t matter. You’re not as put together on paper as they are.
A few years ago, I would have believed that lie. I would have shut down. I would have stayed quiet and made myself smaller.
But God has done a work in me.
I’ve learned how to drown out the enemy’s noise with God’s truth. And the truth is this: my voice does matter. I am a leader. My opinion holds value—just as much as anyone else’s.
Another area God has been gently exposing in my heart is my tendency to be a people pleaser. I truly believe that comes with being a Type C personality. I want peace. I want harmony. I want everyone to feel okay. And I think the enemy knows that—so he plays right into it. He fills my mind with lies that say I’m not enough or that I should stay quiet, because speaking up might cause conflict.
But here’s what I’m learning: speaking up doesn’t mean you’re wrong. It doesn’t mean you’re unkind. And it doesn’t mean you’re creating division.
People pleasers often avoid conflict at all costs. I’ve jokingly crowned myself the queen of people pleasing. But God has shown me something freeing—I can care deeply about people and still speak what’s on my heart and mind. Those two things are not opposites.
God has also reminded me that I’m surrounded by people who love me, hear me, and value me. People who appreciate what I bring to the table, even if my life—or my planning style—doesn’t look the most organized on the surface.
The enemy wants us quiet. God wants us confident in who He created us to be.
And I’m learning to believe God every time.
I say all of this to encourage you to combat the enemy with God’s truth. Embrace who God has created you to be. Love yourself wholly, because God does. I see you, and I hear you.
God’s Love and Mine,
Carrie
